Hospital Days are coming...
Usually I count days either for my parents, or for my siblings...I guess its my time. I was diagnosed with Acute Gloemrulonephritis back in 2000. Now its worsening close to kidney failure. Our genes really suck up - big time. But I cant blame anyone not even God on this, lest worry on what may happen in next coming months. Im trying to be positive together with my other half. Im more than happy to be with her especially in these moments when you needed her the most. Im wishing that all will be good as soon as plans work out. For now, prayers and more prayers will be enough to fortify my increasing will.
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Im now in another dimension. Scared but crazy excited. Ty[pical of a guy that moves in in another territory. First day was a blast. Hassle free stay in. 2 minute away worksite and tons and tons of girls. But always cautious, I gotta first be meek and observe to check out what really is in store for this short of a stint. It takes time to build a relationship with new people whom you will be with with this new life step. But Ill be there. Will take it one step at a time....
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Panu kaya magakaroon ng dagdag sa kinikita ko: 1. Magpaskil sa bahay ng karatula na pwede din akong hardinero, labandero o kusinero pag sabado at linggo...kahit blip at panti lalabhan ko wehehehe 2. Tatakbo ako ng hubot hubad for a cause - baka naman walang mag donate sa takot. 3. Mag bigay ng hula with matching ubanin na buhok at tungkod to finish up the hermit look. San kaya pwede? 4. O di kaya mag lifeguard sa alona beach - teka baka ako pa unang malunod kesa sa isasagip ko... 5. Lam ko na mag garage sale na lang ako...yun!!!!!! teka wala nga pala akong garahe...(ed: ay ang bobs) Hirap mag icip,,,
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Kakatawag ko lang sa tatay ko. Dialysis na naman bukas. Heart attack siya last week. As usual umutang na naman ako sa SRESLA. Di ko na nga iniisip ang gastos basta ok lang sya....sila...pati mga kapatid ko. Ang papel ko yata sa mundo e ganito na lang. Pero di naman ako nagrereklamo kaya lang kung magkaminsan ang daling isipin na pagud ka na...pagud na sa pagpunta sa ospital...pagud sa pakikipag usap sa mga ahente ng M Lhuilier...nakakapagod. Kailan kaya ulit ito matatapos? Hindi naman gagaling ang tatay ko. Bahala na...ganun naman ang buhay ko...walang plano...walang direksyon.
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eto na naman ako...mangungulet ule. sa tinagal ng panahon e ganito pa din si utoy. makulet pa din. napabakasyon laang ako ng kaunti dahil na din sa hinayupak kong trabaho. tsaktsakan kasi ng hirap at kapag ala ang aking bosing e ako ang natatabunan ng sandamukal na trabaho. kaya nga eto hanggang dito muna at najejebs nako sa kakaisip pa lang ng trabaho.
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MESSAGE: Pride leads us to exaggerate our neighbour’s faults and to underestimate and excuse our own. On one occasion Our Lord said to those who were listening to Him, Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye, ‘when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother’s eye (Matt 7:3.5). Avoiding negative, and often unjust, judgements on others is a sign of humility. The slightest faults of others are exaggerated by our personal pride, whereas our own perhaps much greater defects are minimised and explained away. Moreover, pride tends to see in others what are really our own imperfections and errors. Hence Saint Augustine gives this wise piece of advice: Strive to acquire the virtues you think your brothers lack, and then you will no longer see their defects, because you yourselves will not have them (St Augustine, Commentary on Psalm 30, 2, 7). Humility on the other hand has a positive influence through a series of virtues which favour a good human and Christian atmosphere in social life. Only the humble man is in a position to forgive, to understand, and help, because he alone realises that he has received everything from God. He is aware of his own wretchedness and how much he himself is in need of the divine mercy. So even when he has to judge, he is understanding towards his neighbour. He finds excuses and forgives whenever necessary. Besides, we have a very limited view of what motivates the actions of others. God alone can penetrate into the most intimate interior of hearts, read minds and grasp the real effect and value of all the circumstances that influence and accompany any action. We must learn to pass over even the obvious and undeniable defects of the people we are with each day, so that we do not keep our distance from them or lose our respect for them because of their mistakes or bad manners. Let us learn from Our Lord, who could not entirely excuse the sin of those who crucified him, but extenuated its malice by pleading their ignorance. When we cannot excuse a sin, let us at least make it worthy of compassion by attributing the most favourable cause we can to it, such as ignorance or weakness (St Francis de Sales, Introduction to the Devout Life, III, 28). If we make the effort to discover our neighbour’s good points, we shall see that the deficiencies in his character, the defects in his behaviour, are as nothing in comparison with his virtues. This positive, just attitude towards those with whom we are constantly in contact will bring us closer to God. We shall grow in interior mortification, charity and humility. Let us strive always to look at the virtues and good deeds we see in others, Saint Teresa tells us, and cover their defects with the thought of our own great sins. This is a manner of acting that, although we cannot do so with perfection right away, gradually gains for us a great virtue - that of considering all other men as being better than ourselves. In such a way, with the help of God, one begins to acquire this virtue (St Teresa, Life, 13, 10). My Prayer God help me to be humble again. Help me regain my understanding of what life is and how people should be treated with respect. Lord you still are my shepherd.
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NOTE: Bangui is a term used for people who are ultra-conceited. Bangui actually is where the first windmills in the country are, which generates enough power from the WIND intended for the town.----------------------------------------------------------------------------- Frustrated akong neuro-surgeon kaya pagbibigyan ko na ang sarili ko sa joke na to. Three surgeons were discussing which one was the most skilled. The first surgeon, by the name of tutut, said that a man had fallen across the railroad tracks, and a train had severed both legs just above the knees. After my surgery and physical therapy, that man won this year's Boston Marathon. Bangui number 1 anlakas ng hangin, 160 kph!!!!! The second surgeon, si tutut # 2, said that was nothing. A woman had been thrown head first through the windshield of a car and her face was sliced to ribbons. After my surgery she won the Miss America contest. Bangui number 2...parang 300kph na bagyo hanef sa yabo! The third surgeon, syempre si utoy, said that was nothing. A man had been sucked into the air intake of a jet engine. The only thing that was recovered was a tiny piece of brain matter no larger than a pea. From that piece, I, the surgeon reconstructed the entire man, and now he is president of the United States.
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Once upon a time, a group of Ah Bengs stepped into a lounge and wanted the DJ to play the song "Ah Cheng Buey Ro Ti" (In Hokkien meaning Ah Cheng buys bread)The DJ told them that they only have English songs and told them to re-select another song. The Ah Bengs were indignant and kicked up a big fuss, claiming that the DJ was insulting them. The manager had to intervene in order to calm them down. Finally, after many hours of talking, the manager managed to find out that the Ah Bengs were actually asking for the song "Unchained Melody" by the Righteous Brothers.
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may mga taong kahit anong gawin mo ay mayrong makikitang mali sayo. bakit ka ganito, bakit ka ganyan...mahirap maubos maisip kumbakit may mga taong sadyang ipinanganak ng ganito. dala na din siguro ng kanilang mga aninong aayaw mapansin ng iba o di kaya'y mapag usapan ng karamihan.napagtanto ko...hindi kaya ito ang mga dahilan ng kanilang mga pagpupula (pula i.e. puna, "meddle", pakialam) 1. "pula ka ng pula e ni pulak wala ka" - matagal ng sumasagi sa isip ko ang bagay na to. bagamat ipinanganak akong salat, hindi ako tinuruang mamuna ng kapwa. ngunit saking pagtanda lalo na ng mapasok ako dito, naiba ang persepsyon ko sa buhay. maraming taong nais na ikaw ay malaglag, mapahamak, MAPAGTAWANAN, MAPUNA NG MARAMI SA IYONG KAHINAAN, MAPAG -USAPAN, at higit sa lahat MAGING TAMPULAN NG TUKSO. habang naglalaro sa utak ko ang mga bagay bagay na pilit kong iwinawaksi, nahulog ako sa patibong ng kanilang mundo. nanghamak, nagtawa, nangmata...nakihalubilo sa mga usapang kakatwa at may baluktot na pagtingin sa kapwa. Ito marahil ang kanilang dahilan upang hindi sa kanila maibaling ang PAGPULA...upang sila ang mag BIDA...maging SUPERYOR...maging AMO. hanggang sa magising akong muli sa daang minsan ko nang tinahak. ngayon, katulad ng matagal ko ng pagharap sa buhay - tatlo ang maari kong gawin - maging tapat at ipamukha sa mamumula na kung maaring tingnan ang kanyang sarili sa bago mamula, manibugho, makipagtunggali at sabihin ang nais sabihin, o manahimik na lamang at ibahagi sa KANYA ang sitwasyon. marahil sa KANYA ko na rin lamang ipapabahala ang aking desisyon. 2. "hindi tumitingin sa salamin" - pwede naman tayong manalamin araw araw kaya nga lang merong mga taong mas gustong punahin ang iba kaysa sa sarili. tsk tsk tsk...siguro ayaw niyang mapahiya ang sarili niya sa kanyan sarili. nakakaawa at nakakatawang isipin na ikaw mismo ang pupula sa iyong sarili. sa isang banda, mas magaling na rin ang punahin ang sarli kaysa ang iyong kapwa. 3. "mahangin lamang talaga" - hindi na ito dapat pang ipaliwanag. wise is the person who knows what to say and when to say it....... there are some silent people whose praises should be sung; they preach a mighty sermon by guarding well their tongue...... not what we have, but what we use, not what we see, but what we choose - these are the things that mar or bless the sum of human happiness....
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